April was a long month
You have no idea how many times I have sat down to write this.
April was a busy and long month for this Mommy. So while I may have neglected this lovely blog, I have been present for a great deal of other things in my life so I am feeling balanced in other ways. So where to begin on catch up… my little baby girl is growing like crazy. I measure her daily by the new depths she can reach, literally, with her eager soft little hands, fishing on countertops with little or no visibility. Just hope, hope and fingertips that little one. Hope for anything “preeatdy” or pretty. something new or interesting within grasp even if it can’t be seen. At least once a week I need to push things further back on the counters or furniture.
Life and work has been constant, sometimes I like that. I often thrive on the fast pace or the nose to the grindstone mentality. the momentum that continues to propel me. Other times of course, I feel as though I never get a break, even a peaceful shower. Part of this is being a Mom and part of this is doing things alone or at least feeling like it.
C and I are going good, steady but not fixed. Couples counseling came to a temporary end. We both have our different opinions as to why it needed to be stopped. Either way we concluded that individual counseling was the route to go to be in a good place for each other and open to resolution as a couple.
Personally, I feel my spirit and ideals going through growing pains the last month and a half. I am blessed with positive moments and days of peace and revelation coupled with the days that challenge what I thought I wanted or was going to get in life. Either way I am riding the waves of this year. I continue to remind myself daily that this is a process and all of this takes time. Patience is faith in action.